There is something especially wonderful about the pleasures one can find in states of great pain. Pain is not a thing that most of us appreciate, nor should we. It’s something our body does to let us know something is wrong – we’re stepping on glass, the music is too loud, we’re straining our muscles too much.
However, migraines are a pain which no one really understands. Scientists and doctors haven’t quite figured out why people get them or how to cure them. As a sufferer of such pains, I will describe them briefly, as they are similar to many other pains that we can have: Constant pain, seeming to go on forever, causing panic and calm alternately. It is a pain which heightens the senses, causing every glimmer of light to be blinding and ever stir of the breeze to be deafening. It is a pain that makes you aware of the blood beating a steady, constant path in your body.
And it is a pain that can make you appreciate things more than you thought possible. When in a state of great pain, every single relief is a blessing, a thing to rejoice over. The slightest chill in your arms make you smile as the heat of the pain eases for a moment. The feeling of calm that washes over you as you fall asleep makes you sigh with gratitude. The distraction a book offers makes you feel languid and serene as you concentrate on something outside of your pain. These things are what make bearable the knowledge that you live with a shadow of immense pain ready to pour over you at any given moment.
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I suffer from cluster headaches every so often–you can almost set your watch by them when they occur. Blisteringly intense and dreadfully painful. I know of your pain, and genuinely empathize. I’ve done some reading on them, so start with webmd.com, if you haven’t already.
Ouch. My father used to get cluster headaches. He would prowl around the house at three and four in the morning, just moving so as not to think about them. I hope yours go away eventually like his did!
Thanks, I’ll check out the site :).
The way you view pain is brave and productive and a great lesson for us all!