Wrackspurts

“A Wrackspurt… They’re invisible. They float in through your ears and make your brain go fuzzy…” – Luna Lovegood, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

I’ve had a Wrackspurt in my head all day. I didn’t have any classes and an interview I was supposed to have about my school’s Oxford program was canceled: I had a whole free day to do lots and lots and lots of work in. Total amount of time actually working? Probably about two-and-a-half hours. That’s all. I napped for too long, I messed around on the Internet for too long, and now I’m writing in my blog instead of working on the story I need to send to my writing teacher or continuing to make some headway with the notes I’m trying to organize on Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment. Ugh.

I hate when this happens. I begin to feel guilty about not having done enough and it takes the pleasure out of the things that I do for fun. Even when I try to tell myself that I actually do have enough time, that things are going okay and that I’m mostly on top of my work, actually, I still somehow end up feeling guilty. And then I get stuck in obsessive thoughts; for example, I woke up from my nap at 4:50PM and then lay in bed feeling back about having taken a nap until 5:20PM, wasting another half hour that way and not managing to release myself from those obsessive, judgmental thoughts.

If anybody knows of a potion to get rid of wrackspurts and unfuzz the brain, let me know. Also, any un-guilt potions would be helpful.

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8 thoughts on “Wrackspurts

  1. Erin M says:

    If it’s any comfort, I know the feeling. I used to worry all the time about what I was supposed to be doing and I’d end up not enjoying what I was doing for relaxation.

    My solution was to have far fewer responsibilities. Unfortunately that’s not feasible for everyone, and I still occasionally feel guilty about wasting time.

    I don’t know if this philosophy will help (if not, throw it out the window!), but remember it’s YOUR life. Do what YOU think you need to do, and try to enjoy it if possible. =]

    xoxoxoxoxo

    • See, what I want is to have fewer responsibilities, and for a while, while I was taking my medical leave from school, that’s how my life was. But I also want to study and I want to work and I want to do a million things that require me to be responsible, and that clashes… *sigh*

      I just need to learn how to find a middle ground.

  2. What exactly is wrong with having a wrackspurt day ? It didn’t do Luna any harm. She walks around in a perpetual state of wonder and acceptance. She allows things to unfold in their time. She will be rescued when she is supposed to be. Creativity cannot be forced. And a good nap is probably your bodies way of saying – I need rest. Ease up – you have your whole life to stress unnecessarily. 🙂

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