For a moment, the heat rises from the very tips of the toes all the way to the smallest nerve-endings in the fingertips and from thence to every part of the face. The heat rushes through the veins and tendons, searching out every muscle that can be flexed and made taught. For only a moment, all this happens unfettered by thought, by reality, by anything except the pure and unending rage.
In the one, pure moment before thought, the body is entirely out of its owner’s control, ruled by temper and animal instinct. But for a moment only. Muscles taught, blood pulsing wildly, hands clenching and unclenching, the thoughts nevertheless rise to meet rationality, reality and morals. The rage fights to be heard, to be let out, and while the body might lash out, hit, rend, tear and scratch, it will now be done with the knowledge of what is right, what is wrong, and what hurt is being inflicted because of the temper.
Rage and Temper – two harsh masters of which we all would want to be free. Alas, they are part of our natures. It is only that in some they rise to the surface more quickly, while some are lucky enough to have them lie dormant most of the time.
Oh i know these moments well, when just for a few seconds i am so enraged that it feels like my body is going to act without my consent. I just want to run off to an empty field far away and scream and shout until i feel better.
I might try that one day.
If you ever hear of the crazed woman screaming in a field – Its me 😉
This is wonderful. I hate times like this when this kind of terror hits me. I often wonder if animals being hunted feel this way. That’s honestly what this reminded me of. I felt great things when I read this.