This morning, I woke up, and I was sure it was going to be a horrible day. Now, about eight-and-a-half hours later, the day has turned out to be surprisingly lovely. I’m always a bit nervous when this happens; I keep expecting some sort of emotional lighting-bolt to hit me out of nowhere and crumble my good mood into ashes. You may say I’m being needlessly pessimistic. But I swear, I’m my own worst enemy, and I can do this to myself for not much reason at all. I guess that’s part of what brought my whole illness about.
No dwelling! I intend this to be a happy post. So I shan’t dwell, no sirree.
My mom and I baked brownies today. It’s amazing how little work it takes to make the batter. They taste so much better than a ready-made mix, and are just as quick to make. They’re currently sitting, ever-so-innocently, in their glass pan on the kitchen counter, calling out to be devoured.
I also managed to catch up on blog-reading lately, something that makes me happy because I love having all these different viewpoints, opinions and lives to learn from and peek into, if only through some words on a screen. It’s amazing, really, what a few words can make you think and feel, isn’t it?
Another good thing that happened today is that my studying has been going well. I don’t think I’ve mentioned it before, but I’m taking a course at the Open University here. It’sĀ history course focusing on Greece during the Classic period, but with some background into earlier times as well. So far, the material is fascinating, although it’s presented in a rather drab fashion – we get these course-books that summarize everything and are very dry and not appealing to read. Still, if I look past that, I find that what I actually find in the pages of the boring looking brown books is extremely interesting. Hopefully, I’ll even get credit for this class when I go back to Sarah Lawrence.
Finally, I took a walk today. I’m being allowed to walk again, and I love it. I just love walking fast, feeling my muscles work and my heartbeat rise.
So far, a good day.
Slightly Ignorant 
You know what? I think we all are our own worst enemy. Sometimes I could kick myself in the ass for the way I am at times.
I’m so glad to hear you are taking a class. I didn’t know that and it makes me glad you’re doing something.
I wish you hadn’t mentioned the homemade brownies! Now I want one. I’d love to sit and have brownies with you sometime.
You sound really healthy and it was good to read this today.
Make brownies! You totally should, as a weekend treat ^_^.
Thanks, Joy š
I’m glad to hear that you’re doing well! I think it would be fascinating to take a class like that,I’ve always been so interested in Greece. Sadly I’ve never made homemade brownies from scratch, just out of the box. I was actually thinking about making some soon and think I’ll try making the homemade variety š
You really should, they’re SO easy, I swear!
Your course sounds so interesting! Well, the content, anyway. Sorry to hear the format isn’t so appealing.
I’m glad you had a good day! Baking, walking, reading blogs . . . all the things I love to do, too! ^_^
I don’t know the nature of the illness that you mention, but I hope that you continue to feel better and that your condition keeps improving.
Hugs!
Thank you, Erin š My illness isn’t anything life threatening – or rather, not anymore. I have an eating disorder that I’ve been struggling with for almost two years now…
I’m so sorry to hear that. I wish you every success in overcoming it. *more hugs*